Listening to: Imagine Dragons
Reading: Swiss Family Robinson for the millionth time
Eating: black olives
Drinking: manzanita el sol
So, about a month ago, my grandparents sat me down and said "Hey we found the place we want to live after we retire. We hope you have a place to go, because we don't want you to be homeless, BUT if you go to Los Angeles to live with your fiance, we will never be a family again."
My fiance is trying to find a way to live where I am, but since California is so expensive to live in, and he has to take care of his family first and foremost, I'm pretty much fucked. On top of that, I just got a second part time job, and I will still have to pay all my bills but NOW I'll have to find a way to live on my own, having never done so before.
Last night, I came home to a for sale post in our front lawn. I sent the picture to my fiance, and my two dearest irl friends, and went into my room and just started to cry. I'm doing a lot of that, nowadays.
Luckily for me, their offer on the other house didn't go through. BUT, they are still determined to sell, and if they can't get a place, they've decided to live in their motorhome until they find a place.
"Why can't you go with them to the house?" you ask? Because I'm 22, and it's seniors only. Now, yes, they have worked hard all their lives, and of course they've earned their peace and quiet after a lifetime of hard work. But now, they have burrowed their way into my fiance's business, and are trying to control him by "finding him work" in our area so I wont move away. My grandparents still baby the shit out of me wherever they see fit, but they have also been taking my money without asking, they send me to do shit they just don't feel like doing (even if I'm REALLY ill), and when I buy my own groceries, they fucking eat them behind my back and pretend that they never saw the items. If I say anything I get this beautiful speech: "You are completely ungrateful. We have taken care of you our whole lives, and we ALWAYS will take care of you! You are just a huge child and you'll never be able to take care of yourself because of our sacrifice." I just heard this speech literally a week before dropping the bomb "hey come up with 2 months of rent and a deposit in the next month or you are screwed!"
And now, my fiance is asking if I'd be mad if he took a job in his hometown, and I told him that it's fine. Yeah, he's my almost husband, but this isn't his fight and I know it's something he doesn't want to do. I just finished the training/orientation for my new job, and I can't just..... LEAVE now! It makes me look so irresponsible! And it's for a BIG deal company, San Diego Zoo Global. They have a ton of influence, and I don't want to be on their bad side, but I'm in a very tight position! I'm a strong believer in "everything happens for a reason" and I wish I knew why I got a job that I know I will absolutely love with great pay and great benefits if I'll just have to leave it when it just barely began.
We just spent the last week preparing the house. It's so empty now, to be ready for open houses. I just want to cry.